Ok so i guess things have been pretty calm and good since i noticed that i haven't writen since the 16th. Updating you on things coming up and going on and then a message of feelings i have noticed as well.
So school is going good. Its exam time for all my classes. I think i did well on my health class one. My astronomy one i take this week. Im nervous because the chapters have just kind of flown over my head. My sign language class is the BEST! I'm loving it. I have conversations with myself when i'm at work or home. No one else around me knows it real well. My church friends all know a little and so im teaching Jake again so we can talk and he can help me. Speaking of Jake, we are doing fantastic. He is going to be part of the topic im talking about tonight. Work is crazy and there has been rumors of the company going under. We as the employees are worried cause they have told us that they wouldn't till us till the last day that we needed to leave. People are debating about getting new ones or waiting till its needed. I am worried because if mom loses or gets a new job, i might not be covered by her insurance. So we are taking a look into things to see what i can do to pay for myself. I think and feel that it would be best for me to be paying my own things. It's expensive and some what frightening to think that i need to keep a job now to pay for things i NEED. In the week that i lost my job it was scary. I was hoping i could get back so i could get money. I need to have something to fall back on and have that safety net to catch me in hard times. Im starting out good in this aconomy and right now i have no concern for how much i spend cause i have had that background and money to use. I am saving up and have no particular thing im waiting for right now. Anyway enough talk about money and life with that. ahaha But work is busy as heck. We are like over a month behind. We hired on a girl to help us catch up but she talks to us so much of the time that she is making us fall farther behind. Then lots of the stores send in the media super messy and it slows us down like a lot. It ends up taking us 2 to 3 times longer doing one box. The one big thing that i have been excited about but couldnt talk about is coming up this weekend! I am leaving on a plane friday morning to utah. I will be going by myself and will be there till monday. I will be going to conference on sunday for the first time with a friend of mine. I will be living with my adopted family there. I have missed somuch. Ok so now time for the interesting thoughts...
Friends are those who you are around most the time. They are what ends up defining the person you are. I have had good friends and bad friends. Friends that made me unhappy (and enevitably lost that friendship) they where too much into making it known that they where having a bad day. I started to complain all the time and be a pain for mom. My best of friends have been in the church. They have been possitive and uplifting. They care about me and not focussing on them. They want to do things that i find fun and intertaining instead of getting drunk and doing drugs. So when you hang out with certain people you end up becoming like them. They rub off on you. I have always enjoyed the way i have been able to be myself and clean and happy with my mormon friends. But there is one relationship i have that i haven't had before. They're someone with the same out look on life and same hopes. With other friends and close ones like this one i have not felt like i needed to something myself. I felt that things in my life where good and i was in a sense perfect with the ideas of what a friend needed to be and that i was close to that. With this friend Jake, It's different. I wanted to be around him at first because he wasn't like the other guys here in the area. Gang banger wanna be's, he is good with his church calling and loves having the presthood. This friend helps me with the tiny things like making sure i eat less sugar for my health. He wants me to be healthy. In taking time to have fun and getting to know him, I have had a change. This friend has rubbed off onto me in a way i havent had ever. There is a change inside that is amazing. I want to be a better person. I want to help this friend with all i can. I want to be that thing that is not a bad temptation. I want to be a good influence for. I want to be a grown up responsible person now. I want to be the person i am supposed to be. I feel so precious and fragile. He opens every door for me, pulls my chair out for me. I am so happy with the relationship i have. I help him, he helps me. We work together on our differences and talk about things. We are a team. I am letting you know how special he is to me. I know how special i am to him. Have you found that friend that makes you want to be better? if not why? or do you think that you have and just haven't realized it? Think about it and enjoy your week. I'll be getting ready for my trip and school. talk to you all later..
Issue 14 9-28-08
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