bad days happen!

So i was hopping with a slight hope that i would be keeping my job since i made it past the first cuts at work. Yesterday i was working away, looked behind me for a moment and saw my entire group of coworkers gathered in the isle way behind me talking. I had my music on so i didn't know that they where there. I took the headphones out and started sneakily listening in to what was happening. My main boss was telling people she is leaving. Two minutes later i found out why. Mervyns if filing chapter 7 for bankruptsy. That means we have limited amount of time here. So this is all fine that if it was just me losing my job, I can get a new one part time at a store or something till i leave. IF I LEAVE NOW... Mom is losing her job as well. This means that we lose all her benefits! HEALTH INSURANCE!!!! Yeah that means we have to find out what to do with me. The companies that will accept my prexisting wont take me cause i am currently making too much. But now im jobless in a sence it wont matter much so that opens some more windows for me. im going to have to pay for my car insurance i just paid for yesterday and tuition, and now health insurance all on the money i have saved up. I dont have a lot considering all my expenses now.

To make matters worse, on my way to school yesterday i sorta bumped into the back of someone as i was driving. I gave her my information and was so shook up afterwards i went to the institute building across the street from school and just sat there for the night instead of calling my mom and worrying her or going home. I got home and told her but im still worried that the lady will call the insurance company and i dont want thtat first because rates will be sky high for me and my good deal mom got me will be gone. The damage was not even that bad. Minor scrap maybe on the bottom of her back bumper. Not even a week after getting it i hit somone. I felt like such a bad person and irrisponsible last night. I still feel bad and well im trying to focus on the bigger issues at hand for the moment.

I am sitting at work right now. No one out of the people who still are working here are here yet. So im all alone by myself on the entire floor basically. The only other person is mom i think. I will update you all later with the details of when i am officially done here!

WISH ME LUCK WITH EVERYTHING. Keep me in your prayers as well as my mother!

Issue 15 10-17-08