Long time! and Trip

Ok so i guess things have been pretty calm and good since i noticed that i haven't writen since the 16th. Updating you on things coming up and going on and then a message of feelings i have noticed as well.

So school is going good. Its exam time for all my classes. I think i did well on my health class one. My astronomy one i take this week. Im nervous because the chapters have just kind of flown over my head. My sign language class is the BEST! I'm loving it. I have conversations with myself when i'm at work or home. No one else around me knows it real well. My church friends all know a little and so im teaching Jake again so we can talk and he can help me. Speaking of Jake, we are doing fantastic. He is going to be part of the topic im talking about tonight. Work is crazy and there has been rumors of the company going under. We as the employees are worried cause they have told us that they wouldn't till us till the last day that we needed to leave. People are debating about getting new ones or waiting till its needed. I am worried because if mom loses or gets a new job, i might not be covered by her insurance. So we are taking a look into things to see what i can do to pay for myself. I think and feel that it would be best for me to be paying my own things. It's expensive and some what frightening to think that i need to keep a job now to pay for things i NEED. In the week that i lost my job it was scary. I was hoping i could get back so i could get money. I need to have something to fall back on and have that safety net to catch me in hard times. Im starting out good in this aconomy and right now i have no concern for how much i spend cause i have had that background and money to use. I am saving up and have no particular thing im waiting for right now. Anyway enough talk about money and life with that. ahaha But work is busy as heck. We are like over a month behind. We hired on a girl to help us catch up but she talks to us so much of the time that she is making us fall farther behind. Then lots of the stores send in the media super messy and it slows us down like a lot. It ends up taking us 2 to 3 times longer doing one box. The one big thing that i have been excited about but couldnt talk about is coming up this weekend! I am leaving on a plane friday morning to utah. I will be going by myself and will be there till monday. I will be going to conference on sunday for the first time with a friend of mine. I will be living with my adopted family there. I have missed somuch. Ok so now time for the interesting thoughts...

Friends are those who you are around most the time. They are what ends up defining the person you are. I have had good friends and bad friends. Friends that made me unhappy (and enevitably lost that friendship) they where too much into making it known that they where having a bad day. I started to complain all the time and be a pain for mom. My best of friends have been in the church. They have been possitive and uplifting. They care about me and not focussing on them. They want to do things that i find fun and intertaining instead of getting drunk and doing drugs. So when you hang out with certain people you end up becoming like them. They rub off on you. I have always enjoyed the way i have been able to be myself and clean and happy with my mormon friends. But there is one relationship i have that i haven't had before. They're someone with the same out look on life and same hopes. With other friends and close ones like this one i have not felt like i needed to something myself. I felt that things in my life where good and i was in a sense perfect with the ideas of what a friend needed to be and that i was close to that. With this friend Jake, It's different. I wanted to be around him at first because he wasn't like the other guys here in the area. Gang banger wanna be's, he is good with his church calling and loves having the presthood. This friend helps me with the tiny things like making sure i eat less sugar for my health. He wants me to be healthy. In taking time to have fun and getting to know him, I have had a change. This friend has rubbed off onto me in a way i havent had ever. There is a change inside that is amazing. I want to be a better person. I want to help this friend with all i can. I want to be that thing that is not a bad temptation. I want to be a good influence for. I want to be a grown up responsible person now. I want to be the person i am supposed to be. I feel so precious and fragile. He opens every door for me, pulls my chair out for me. I am so happy with the relationship i have. I help him, he helps me. We work together on our differences and talk about things. We are a team. I am letting you know how special he is to me. I know how special i am to him. Have you found that friend that makes you want to be better? if not why? or do you think that you have and just haven't realized it? Think about it and enjoy your week. I'll be getting ready for my trip and school. talk to you all later..

Issue 14 9-28-08

haha FORGOT!

The whole reason for the last blog i didn't mention. I was talking to the teachers at the H and the group who worked with me on the movies i was in and made, where there. One lady wants me to make another one and so i think im going to do it. There is some more opportunities opening up for me right now and it feels wonderful. I love the camera! lol

got to go now for real ill get back to you all later.

Issue 13 9-16-08

Another movie??

So the update on things this week. I went to the H last Thursday to do a whole bunch of tests. I did sight, breathing, blood, heart test, and some more. I know no results of any of them other than the sight test. I am good to go on that one. Anything out of the normal i don't think really happened this last week. Yesterday was my grandfathers birthday so we went to dinner and then had a cake at their place. It was fun spending time with them. I saw a happy side of my grandpa come out yesterday. Today i went to the dentist earlier and they said that i have a perfect mouth except that i need one filling cause i couldnt floss all year long. So they made an appointment for me to go back in an hour and do that. Also they said IT'S TIME TO PULL THE WISDOM TEETH! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
RUN FOR THE HILLS!

I am not looking forward to that cause im going to start paying for just about everything now and well thats not the most exciting thing to start paying for. Also they horror stories i have heard make me not want to do it either.

This weekend im so excited. I am going to a baptism for not one but two close friends of mine. They are sisters and we met at camp and have a similar circle of friends. I am so happy for them and i am going to support them in that. Afterwards there is a dance for the youth group im in now and Jake and me are going to go to that.

One thing that has happened in the last week i can't offically announce yet. But a lot of people already know and it's hard to keep this contained. So i will spill the beans slightly. I will be taking a trip by my self for a few days. I can't disclose the location on here but it's going to be fun. The whole thing is basically planned already and i can't wait. Ill give more hints or details to it later as the time gets closer.

issue 12 9-16-08

Weekend!

Ok so where to start? My weekend was rather easy and laid back but yet again i was hardly home. Friday the family did a camp out thing at a park for the ward. We got there shortly after work and got all set up. Had dinner and then the scouts did their program for us. After wards those who weren't sleeping over left and the rest of us did what ever. I had to go to the bathroom and refused to use the porta potty, so Brook had said that there was a working one down the way a bit with lights and everything so i took a friend with us and half way there in the dark we freaked cause we heard something. We turned around and ran back as fast as we could. Then we still wanted a potty and so we made her brother come with us so that we had a man with us. (not always the best thing or most brave of people) We were standing just inches away from the barn door for the bathrooms and we heard something again. Al turned his light tward it and saw two eyes hovering above the ground at about knee hight. He started in a paniced voice "I see eyes" and then his words flew... we got scared and he was willing to go in the bathroom with us, but we were all scared of comming back out. Barb was already running and that made our minds up. We all started running while al was pulling his girlfriend in front and told us that we would be the bait. We (barb and i) looked at each other and pushed our legs faster. we got a head of al and were screaming panic. Al thought it would be funny to start howling like a dog and then he started barking as well. All us girls turned on him and barb threatened to beat him up. She is bigger than he is and stronger as well, she could cream him. She punched him in the arm seriously and told him never to do that again. Later that night after we had run all the way back to the camp area i was sitting with some guys listening to music and talking. It was like 1am or 1 30 am and we were sitting at the tables out in the open with all the open food sitting on the tables surrounding us. The fresh smell of smores still lingering in the smoke of the dimming fire. We heard howling and it was a pack of cyotes. The sound was coming from the left where all the cars where. My car (where i would be sleeping that night) was in the front of the line, the first car facing these dogs. I freaked out and said "ok boys thats my cue to go to bed im not sleeping out here tonight and i need some help getting to my car! Take me up there please?" These boys are sweet and good to girls and they both walked me up there and made sure i was snug in my car with the door locked and shut. As they walked away i turned on my headlights to frighten them away and see if i could see them. Blinding against the trees i couldn't see anything. Just the reflecting light off the trees. It was cold and my family had taken the sleeping bag that was meant for me and put it in the tent. Why im not really sure but i had nothing in the car with me to keep me warm. I just cuddled myself and tried to fall asleep. Three am came along and i woke cause i still had not gone to the bathroom. I was still frightened to get out of my car so i had my phone and i was the only one who had service up at this spot. I called my mom (she has the same phone as me so she had service too!) and woke her up. "Mommy can you come get me? I need to go potty and i am too scared to get out of my car alone. I really need to go, i havent gone all night long." With a tired iritation she agreed and i sat there looking for her and watching her aproach me. I jumped out the car and we practically ran down the hill to the porta potty. We heard something in the bushes on the way and i ran after that. The door to the potty i left open so i could see and keep an eye out for what might be coming my way. I ran up to the campsite and was going to get the sleeping bag. I jumped and yelped cause a scurrying skunk was running from the site. I ran to the car after that and slept so well in my car. Nice and toasty. Saturday afternoon i took a shower only to return to the same park to go on a hike with Jake. We did the hike, watched the sun set, took me to dinner, went shopping for us both, and that was our night. Sunday was church, break the fast, and then a display at the temple. Nice time to talk and just enjoy being together. Thats my weekend and break time is far over so i need to go and hope you all have a good day!

Issue 11 9-7-08

weekend out!

Sunday as soon as i got out of church Jacob took me home and we left for our trip. We got there to the hostal and alm0st drove off a cliff trying to find the parking lot. We turned around and found the right place. Getting situated we decided to go find a place for dinner. We drove around town and found a Japanese sushi place. Mom usually gets mad at us for being like a dog and licking our plates in the privacy of our own home but mom sat there inhaling her sushi and finally picked the little dish up and spooned all of it in her mouth. It was soo funny to watch her do that and go on eating like a little child. But so when dinner was done we went back to the hostel and got the cards out to play in the main room there. We got so hyper me and my sisters. I was a goof ball of major intensity. Finally we decided to go to bed so that we could get up in time for the tide pools in the morning. We got to the room, mom fell to the bed, while us girls sat there laughing and making a bunch of noise. Mom told us to turn the lights out and be quiet. Once we did that it was dead silent untill like midnight when we became the walking dead, Or talking dead in this case. Mom saw brylee sitting up in her bed and finally went over to ask her why she was sitting up. Brylee then said "what are we doing now moma?" Mom "we're sleeping now bry" bry "oh ok, Thanks" Then she layed back down in her bed. she was asleep) Later on in the night we were all talking in our sleep but brook was the only one that mom could hear and remember. She was talking about sneaking out the window with a boyfriend. Yeah thats moms fear!!! The tide pools where cool. I took lots of pics and we found really cool shells. Then we spent the rest of the day in the beach by the hostel. There where cops there when we got back and they where looking for a missing kiacker. No news of if they found him or not. When we got back home to grandmas for dinner we all took naps we were so tired. I still am tired and like want to sleep now on break, but its over so my story time is as well.

I have class tonight and im excited. Ill talk to you all later!

Issue 10 9-2-08