Bad day Turned good!

So TWILIGHT is getting closer and closer! It comes out NOVEMBER 21!!!! got that? NOVEMBER 21. I play the PROM QUEEN! No speaking lines just a glimpse if that. I have been looking for a sweater thing similar to the one i wear in the movie. I have searched and searched. Monday as i was leaving a childrens clothing store from getting an application i spotted a silver jacket. I stopped and backed up to take a peak. I can wear some of the things in this store but not anything more than like cami shirts. There where like five of these left. One happened to be xxl and so i thought "what the heck, i have been searching. Where else will i find it." It fit, so i baught it! THANKS JUSTICE! You made my day Now i can go to the movie looking similar to the way i do in the movie! Yippee !!!! AGAIN NOVEMBER 21!!! I want to go to the midnight showing of it but haven't found tickets for that yet. I have seen tickets for other showings but i want the midnight one... Anyone seen them? Anyone help me find them? I want to go buy some of the shirts and things that HOT TOPIC has for twilight. I have a wish list from the store. I was looking for one close by. Where is that near me? Help?

Anyway the job search has started this week after i spent the whole first week off with jake, playing tennis, helping him put stuff in storage. Dropping him off at the bus station. I am missing him now. We have talked every day since we started dating. Like thousands of times a day. With this new job. He cant text, only talk on the phone. BUT, both of us are on limited minutes. SO, that means i have to wait till after nine when he could just wait till after seven. Today was our first real day of him actually working though and it was slightly nerve wracking! I knew this was going to be hard on us both but i didn't realize how much i would worry. I woke up like every morning with a wake up message he leaves on my phone. I tried to respond to it and got no reply so all through the day i kept it up. I thought he would have to take a break once in a while to go pee or something like that. The first time i heard from him was in the middle of my class. He finally got back to me. I was so relieved when i got that text and he tried calling. I really care about this man. He takes good care of me. He is good to me. He can tell when somethings not right with me and he talks to me about it and we work things out. We communicate and work well with each other. He knows EVERYTHING i think, in my life. That is the role of a best friend. He is my best friend and more. To me a best friend knows everysingle thing and you trust them with it all. A boyfriend is someone you just tell the big things to and are kissy kissy with. Yes i have kissed him. So he plays both roles. He cares about how i feel about things and asks for my input on dicisions. For those of you who have not yet met him and seen how he is, i hope someday you will get to. Anyway back to my main stream here. I worry that some thing might go wrong. How would i know? No phone call responses or anything. BUT i understand he cant always and so i just have to be patient and wait. I am going to learn that a lot over the next few weeks and months.

With all this time im finally trying to get all the things done i didnt have time to do before hand, now. I cleaned my room big time! I cleaned up my computer a bit (still working on it) Learning how to use my camera. Learning to make and buy my own food (things that arent microwaved). emails i have been neglecting, Oh and homework i have and still am needing to do and keep on. Movie time is starting to increase a bit too. SAVING MONEY! I have had a steady income since i started working and so i could afford to buy just about every meal of the day and more some. Now i am not spending hardly as much. Saving money is good!

Everyone is entitled to a bad day here and there. Today wasn't a best day but it wasn't the worst either. It was a mediocre day, well till you sit down to think about your life and everything in it. Then that becomes the make or breaking point of the day, for most people. The tiny things that brighten your day with out you even knowing. With me not having a job now, and Jake temporarily gone while he is doing his training (for a month!) I have a whole bunch of time to let that smack me in the face with the realization that i need to pay attention more! I have a whole day for my mind to play games on me. Yesterday i sat and watched a candle burn for most the day. Today i played with my camera and worked a bit on my computer. I did a job interview that seems promising, on Monday. We have to see if it will work out though.... school is going to complicate that if i change from crummy night school to going during the day. You can very easily get depressed, but to counter that you can also very easily be intertained by thinking of all the things to be thankful for. Thanksgiving is coming up and I'm starting my list now. I was writing a letter tonight after school, updating a friend on the craziness that seems to run my life. (no serious complaints just yet) I started with the big news of no job and wound down to the good and exciting things we all where doing. Brook and boys at school, Brylee and the drama of junior high. Fighting over the phone for the teenage thing. All the big main events in each of our lives. The good right now is overpowering the negative so that means we are great.

"As a whole life is good and wonderful. I thank god every night for the chance i had to live that day and make my mark in history some how. I am so glad to be alive, even on the bad and terrible days. You have to have bad days to make the good days so much more enjoyable, and worth so much more! I know that there is a god who makes all things possible and is there when we need him. We take so many things for granted and dont really take the time of day to just sit there and take it all in. Watching a candle burn and think about the chemicals in it and why it burns or watching leaves fall off a tree, wondering if they talk to each other or have thoughts like we do. "I'm falling, my time with this tree is over, I must move on!" I imagine they do but some time i hope to find out the answer. I am thankful for my trials. They make me who i am and stronger. Not many teenagers or even adults for that matter have the knowledge and wisdom in the things that i do. I'm not saying im smarter just that my smarts are different from most people. I am thankful for my friends and my family who deal with me in my bad times but that they are there to help lift me up and for me to help lift them up when needed."

What are you greatful for? Give me a list of things you are thankful for, or things you could not live with out, The tiny things in live that make that terrible day become an ok day. You can give me that list and any other answers to questions i have asked by commenting on my page, email, or how ever you find a way to do so. Have a wonderful day and be thankful that you are breathing!

Issue18 11-5-08