Lots to talk about and not enough time!

Yeah Lots has been going on but i have been so busy and stressed out that i haven't had the time or the desire to get it all out there on the web. Those who i talk to in person better know and understand. But here i go with trying....
So my boss left and after that basically all the top management people left as well. Then there have been a couple of close days here at work where people thought we were going to walk out that day and it was going to be the end of it all. This last Friday was that day for a lot of people. There is a wind down crew of about 90 people. My mom being one of them. They where originally told they could be there till February. Friday those who where left in the building at lunch time went to a meeting only to hear the the C.E.O. and C.F.O. of the company were resigning. So there was no management at all. So as of Friday last week i have been unemployed. I think it would be alright but the economy SUCKS! Not too many places are hiring and so im like kinda depressed because i need the income to pay for the things i need. I do have health insurance till December so that is good but i think i should get on my own. I really feel that i need to do my own thing. and I think this is the time to do it. I just don't want to because i don't think i can afford to do all these things that are now being laid on me as an adult. I want to be that, don't get me wrong. I just hoped things would kinda be eased into a bit, instead of thrust apon me. But it's life and i can't control that so im trying to do my best and remain happy!

Friday we were also told that the creditor commity is trying to force Mervyn's to take chapter 7 Bankruptsy. If they do that, no one gets paid for the last two weeks (that is still left) and they dont get Cobra, severence, vacation pay. Actual employees of Mervyn's can do unemployment. I can't. We find out this Thursday or Friday the results of the court hearing that has the final desicion. Please keep us in your prayers that it will all work out and me and mom can both find close jobs that are good.

Anyway It's Halloween time around here and on any free time i had up to this point i was going out with Jake to parties with our church Singles Ward. This next week he will be leaving for a bit to do a new job. It's something thats needed but we are both dreading it. I don't want to be alone again, I know i can do it, i Just don't like it. I will be supportive cause it's something he wants and needs for income so ill go with it but it will definatly make or brake things. But on my first free day with nothing to do work wise i need to go and get things done to help mom and start looking in the work force. So i'll talk to you later!

Issue 17 10-28-08

bad days happen!

So i was hopping with a slight hope that i would be keeping my job since i made it past the first cuts at work. Yesterday i was working away, looked behind me for a moment and saw my entire group of coworkers gathered in the isle way behind me talking. I had my music on so i didn't know that they where there. I took the headphones out and started sneakily listening in to what was happening. My main boss was telling people she is leaving. Two minutes later i found out why. Mervyns if filing chapter 7 for bankruptsy. That means we have limited amount of time here. So this is all fine that if it was just me losing my job, I can get a new one part time at a store or something till i leave. IF I LEAVE NOW... Mom is losing her job as well. This means that we lose all her benefits! HEALTH INSURANCE!!!! Yeah that means we have to find out what to do with me. The companies that will accept my prexisting wont take me cause i am currently making too much. But now im jobless in a sence it wont matter much so that opens some more windows for me. im going to have to pay for my car insurance i just paid for yesterday and tuition, and now health insurance all on the money i have saved up. I dont have a lot considering all my expenses now.

To make matters worse, on my way to school yesterday i sorta bumped into the back of someone as i was driving. I gave her my information and was so shook up afterwards i went to the institute building across the street from school and just sat there for the night instead of calling my mom and worrying her or going home. I got home and told her but im still worried that the lady will call the insurance company and i dont want thtat first because rates will be sky high for me and my good deal mom got me will be gone. The damage was not even that bad. Minor scrap maybe on the bottom of her back bumper. Not even a week after getting it i hit somone. I felt like such a bad person and irrisponsible last night. I still feel bad and well im trying to focus on the bigger issues at hand for the moment.

I am sitting at work right now. No one out of the people who still are working here are here yet. So im all alone by myself on the entire floor basically. The only other person is mom i think. I will update you all later with the details of when i am officially done here!

WISH ME LUCK WITH EVERYTHING. Keep me in your prayers as well as my mother!

Issue 15 10-17-08

ALL GOOD!!!

LOTS GOING ON!
My trip was fun! I was waiting in the lobby for my plane to leave on friday morning and two people from singles ward walked up and we ended up sitting next to each other. They where both translating for conference. Zack was there to pick me up and took me to downtown salt lake for some stops i wanted to make. At one of them we were just getting ready to leave and up comes the guy on the plane. We just briefly said hi again and went on our ways. So the first thing i did in Utah was go shopping! I had a gift card from the H that i had never used and so i went and got some shirts. Then we made our way down to HAZEL'S. That was where i stayed the weekend. Friday after getting there i was slightly tired so we put a movie in and i started to fall asleep till it was time to go to a wedding shower. I saw some people that didn't even know they where talking to me. They thought i was my sister. I then took off across the street for a few mins so i could go see a friend. I have missed being in the area with the good guys. Then after the shower Hazel and I went to the dollar theater. I miss cheap movies there! I got home and then i forget what else i did, but i didn't go to bed till like 12:30 everynight. Saturday morning i woke up and watched conference. After that Hazels grandkids where over and so i played with them till my kids who i used to nanny came to take me to lunch. After lunch it was girls night while all the guys went to priesthood. Sunday morning i was woke up early by kids running around and i missed that. I went over to Sarah Purcells house and talked to her for a bit, catching up on time. Then Zack got me and took me to conference. I was actually in the converence center. I forget what it's like to look at someone dressed and almost know exactly for fact that the person is mormon. That just about everyone around you is. In Utah it's a normal thing to hear something about young womens or stake president... so many other church things, while your out to dinner. When i got home from that Hazel said i could take her car and drive around a bit to see some friends. So i took it and got in the rest the people i wanted to see in that i could. Monday morning i woke up to my alarm and slept through the whole night. Some friends had a breakfast planned for me with some friends from the ward. Then after that i went out with my old young womens leader and we drove past my old houses. Makes me thankful mom tried so hard to keep things looking nice around that house. Ann took me out to find me a new journal. The one i have is almost done and so she wanted to get one for me. Then i went back to Hazels and waited for zack. We met up at the airport and hazel handed me off to zack to take me to my gate!
I went shopping in the airport and almost missed my plane cause they started boarding early.

So that was my trip. This week has been an interesting one for sure! This week at work they let go hundreds of people because of the bankrupsy. They just said go in this room for further instruction. If you where sent to this one room, your number was up. My mom and I both still have our jobs but the tention is not yet over. We still could lose them this next week. Keep an eye out for anything thats related.

Something else this week that has changed my life forever now! I GOT MY DRIVERS LICENSE!
On my first day with it i wanted to drive around so on my date with Jake i drove. He is sweet. He ordered flowers online for both me and my mom. Then he had them specially packaged and sent to our appartment. When we got home they where waiting there for us. Anyway it's late and the thoughts i origianally wanted to put down this week i have forgotten and at the moment am too tired to think. So ill talk to you later!

issue 15 10-10-08