Girls Camp and School (found it)

So i know its been what two weeks since i got back from camp? ok well im sorry been sorta busy with school starting right after.
So camp was good. Being a leader is important because you set the tone for the group you are over. There where two level two groups mine and Liz's and then the other one. The leaders in the other group where lazy and didn't really pay attention to their girls and where they needed to be or what they needed to be doing. They didn't care if they paid attention in classes or what ever. The tone with those girls was out of hand and they where everywhere causing issues only because the other leaders in camp kept getting them confused with our group and we got yelled at. The feel me and Liz wanted in our group was that we were all family and we wanted our girls to be close with each other. There was only one day that we could tell there was an issue in our group. We could feel the spirit wasn't with us anymore and we could tell exactly what girls where the cause of it. We had a talk with all the girls and that was the end of it in our group. This year was different the spirit was harder to feel in my opinion. Im not sure if it was me and where i am in my life right now or what but i was having a hard time trying to keep it with me to pass onto the girls. But surprisingly the times i felt it the strongest was because of our girls. There was one girl in our group who goes to church and isn't a member but she ended up being the best inspiration to me. She knows that the church is something good and that she wants it in her life. she loves how she feels from it and how she learns so much. She wants her family to be there for her and support her in her desires. She mentioned that Liz and i where like her mothers that she wishes she had. She came to us one day and asked to do a talk and we where so pleased. There is no way we could turn it down. She had questions everyday about the church and about how to feel the spirit and mentioned often that she could. She was so strong. the day we asked the girls to think of our group as a family she told her friends that she couldnt joke around with them the way they wanted because it would put someone down. She didn't know that i was there listening to her and i was so thankfull that a young girl like that can show such strength that i feel i lack in most situations. I know i can sometimes but i usually just leave and don't think to ask my friends to change something around me. There was one girl who was being left out in the group and one other girl kinda saw that and took the lead in being her friend and stepping in to include her into activities. I don't know if she was really thinking about what she was doing or if it came naturally. I know i don't do that hardly. I admired that. Then when it came time to do the skits everynight, it was very interesting as a leader to sit back and do nothin as the girls faught for control or to put a word in on the different ideas. They ended up working together on every one, and most of the skits turned out the best in camp as far as im concerned.

Issue 23 8-27-09

Good news and SemiBad from the Hospital

So today was a big day at the hospital and i had lots of appointments for my annual check up. The first appointment was a bone density test and what that is, is an x-ray of my bones. I lay on a bed and it moves around while this arm like thing moves as well. I saw the results of the test and things looked like they where better than last year when i took the test. My bones are getting stronger. However, when they did the spine test i saw one pic, and im still not sure if it was a previous one of mine or if it was "the norm" that they compare to. But the pic they took from today looked different then this other picture. One of the vertebrae is shaped differently. If the first pic i saw was mine, then that means that part of my spine has been grinding or something. If it's not my picture from last year then i think i am fine with that.

The second test was a breathing test. I did the best i have ever done on basically all the tests on that but one. On this one i have steadily been declining and am currently on the low average part of the scale. If this number goes lower into the low below average then i would most likely have asthma. The doc i talked to today about that said that this number is going down possibly because of the effects of the chemo. Other than that he said i am a very healthy person.

The third appointment was with the BMT docs they checked me out and went over some previous tests i have had in the last month and in this i found out that in my CT scan in February a sist showed up on my thyroid. It appears that it hasn't grown since then. My doc said not to worry about it now because it isn't growing and the fact its a sist not a tumor. The difference between a sist is its a liquid not a solid, like a tumor is. That was surprising to find out about since we hadn't been told about it before now.

The fourth appointment today was my nutrition. I am a healthy girl i just need more calcium as always. I also need more physical activity and to get out in the sun more to get the vitamin D.

So that is my medical update as of today. I have more tests this week and after i get back from camp. Anyway i must go now to make me and mommy dinner and then take a walk down the street to the store to get me some ice cream bars for my calcium.

Issue 22 8-3-09

Apologies to my Readers

So Lots has gone on since i last wrote and that seems to be a recurring statement from me. Sorry about that. So i'll update fast. I got a job on my own working with Abercrombie and Fitch. I did that in like April maybe the end of March. Around the 28th of June, my cousin who was about six months younger than me was murdered. That was a tragic event in our family because it was such a shock and everything happened so fast. That same week i got another job working at the church book store, Seagull Book. Now what's going on is i have one more week working with Abercrombie and only working with the book store now. I am trying to get myself busy with church stuff but feeling overwhelmed with negative stuff right now. I am feeling lost sorta, or better described for how im feeling is dis-organized. My car is in the shop and broke down sorta on my way home from one job and TOTALLY made me have a huge emotional melt down. I started crying on the phone to my best friends husband. I was lashing out at people i love and making no sense of anything i was saying cause i couldn't be understood, with all the tears. Now i have had to learn how to drive a stick from the car that Jake let me borrow. I will be going to girls camp as a leader next week after we have the YSA state conference at the temple this weekend. That should be fun and not so stressful. The day after i get home i will be starting school again after i have had some issues with that as well adding to everything.

Thats the big news the rest is small and unimportant. I will be trying to keep up with this better now that school is getting back in soon.

Have a good week or so and ill write after camp if not sooner.

Issue 21 8-2-09